am all alone sitting in the fucking lounge trying to do my fucking chem hwk online.
I HATE IT SOO MUCH I WANT IT TO DIE!!
fucking physics in fucking chem, they arent supposed to combine!!!
a wise man once said that combining math and chem would be utter doom, but what did ppl go off and do anyways??? THEY MIXED THE FUCKING TWO!!!
i'm failing bio, i'm being a huuuuuuuuuge loser in chem, and japanese is sooo not fun.
I DONT KNO WHAT THE FUCK TO DO!!!
y am i soo stupid.
derek was right, i cant make it out in berkeley.
my chances for med skool are over
just last semester, they were over.
damned kids who get high and drink all the time are doing a hell of a lot better than me!!!!
y is it that i cant retain a single bit of information???
IM ALL ALONE!!! literally! look at me in this room!! usually there is sooo many ppl , but now???? where did they go?!?!?!?
i cant bitch to anyone cause its the same damn sob storry over and over and over again.
i hate everything and everyone, and those that i dont hate at all... i just dont kno how to act with them....
NSU is wonderful, but everyone is stepping all over me. "sarah do this" "sarah, can u do that?" "sarah, sarah, sarah!!"
and my fucking roommate.... YOUR DOING BETTER THAN ME, BITCH!! STOP COMPLAINING!!!
and y cant tu just fucking leave me alone?!?!?! STOP CALLING ME U ASSHOLE!! i told u to stop, and u dont listen!! u never fucking listen, and guess why i hate u now!??!?!?
soooooooooo angry and depressed, and no one understnads, i want to scream and cry and just....
i was looking at tina's and daniel's deviantart...
i almost cried out of nostalgia....
i dont kno where to go, i dont kno what to do.
i need a job
i need to volunteer
i want to hang out with friends, but many i cant.
everything in this world has turned awkward, and i dont kno y.
y is everything so awkward????
it didnt use to be....
everything used to be soo simple and nice....
the sun was the sun, the grass was just grass...
night was dark, and day was light.
soo bitter... just sooo bitter....
i feel like theres no shoulder to cry on when in reality there are tons... its just pride that stops me...